Knowing Your Purpose

Watching First Aid American Red Cross.

I honestly recommend this for any citizen.

My purpose as an artist and writer is to inspire people and do my best to cheer them up or help them find their purpose.

I'm here with good cheer and humor and bright colors and hopefully life-changing words.

However, I sat through the "Wounds" slideshow of First Aid Response with my hands over my eyes.

As an empath, I have a really hard time seeing injuries and not imagining what it would feel like to experience that pain.

It makes me feel lightheaded and nauseous.

Ironically, after saying it would be my least favorite job in the world, I ended up working at a hospital for years in high school.

People yelling out in pain, in hindsight, likely with PTSD, "Miss, Miss! They have me tied up in here, you've got to help me out! Please! Please! Let me out of here…"

Walking in to find a man who seemed out of his mind, who was ripping out the IVs from his arms, blood spurting.

There I was: sixteen with a questionable perm and sparkly Crocs, in navy paisley scrubs and a hairnet.

You f*cking know it.

I personally do not feel my best strengths lie in responding to these types of life-threatening situations.

But if something should ever happen and I am the only one that can help in an emergency, I sure as hell want to be able to help people in a really tangible an dimperative way, too.

Take one of my best friends finishing up medical school. He worked for years as a scribe in the ER at all hours of the night responding to trauma and I can't even imagine what else.

To think of encountering people bloody or cut up or seriously wounded made me woozy and disgusted, and in all probability, really, really scared and grossed out.

So just like in college, he would study organic chemistry and I would paper mache large sculptures in 3-Dimensional Art classes, eating a sandwich atop a large desk in all black, him a well-manicured blue-eyed German in a petticoat.

Some people are more equipped for certain roles and this is why I think us working together as a whole is essential.

I can be anything, but not everything.

As much as we may want to ignore the obvious: we need each other.

You possess something I do not and vice versa.

You have flaws; I have flaws. We all have flaws.

But we all have greatnessess within us that when combined, create collaboration, comradery, and better protection and peace for more when we are united for a just cause.

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